Day One of the New Job

    It is so weird to think that today I start my new job as a secretary after 6 years of mommy duty and 10 years as a teacher. What is wonderful is that I am starting a new job with my best friend from childhood (she lived across the street from me).  We used to take pictures together and walk to the bus stop together on the first day of school every year and now all these years later I am going to be starting my first day back to work with her.  She will be training me, and undoubtedly making me laugh all day (in between very serious work of course --wink wink).  I think about all of the fun we had and are going to have and I feel so happy to be going back to work.  I know that if I were going anywhere else to work, I would probably be very uncomfortable and probably even sad to be leaving my boys behind (without their mother--its sad I know (tears and sobs)) but somehow, and for some reason, I feel okay about it. 

     So, I am writing this on the bus heading into Manhattan and surprisingly I am very calm.  Both Ryan and Michael were still sleeping when I left so I didn't have to look into their green and blue baby eyes and say goodbye/ I love you.  I undoubtedly would have been a crying mess if I had to give them kisses and hugs.  I worked part time in the mall at Christmas time and they would scream and cry as if I were going down on the Titanic.  Michael would hold my arms and say:  "No!  Mommy, NO!  I can't let you go." "I come with you."   Ryan was the one who made me quit the job at the mall because he was afraid that a robber was going to hurt me while I was in the store.  --there was an incident where I stopped a thief and he was traumatized thereafter.  I tell you they break my heart.  Thank God, they were sleeping and I was able to get out the door without tears--theirs and mine. =)

        As I look out the window going toward the Holland Tunnel I feel great comfort knowing that I will be meeting up with my old friend SANDY.  It is wonderful to know that I am going to be working with one of the very few people whom I  trust with every ounce of my being.  Having met all of the other secretaries prior to being hired (at parties that Sandy has held) and re-meeting them the day of the interview, I feel like I am walking into many welcoming arms.  The doctors seem like really fun people and very down to earth.  I believe my transition back into the working world will be a smooth one.